Reflections

I Saw a Cross Upon a Hill : A Donkey's Tale

Are you enamoured by my cousins, Eeyore, that loveable donkey from the tales of Winnie the Pooh or is your style more a moviegoer’s favourite, tough guy, Donkey, Shrek’s talkative sidekick?  Do you sometimes find yourself humming that delightful Donkey Serenade, keeping company with a mule?  Such light hearted fun; but let’s put aside talk of my fictitious cousins.  Since truth is often stranger than fiction, let me tell you a little about myself, my humble self whom Chesterton once described in his humourous little poem as one:

With monstrous head and sickening cry,
And ears like errant wings,
The devil’s walking parody
Of all four-footed things.

But let me back track a little. About thirty three years ago, as legend has it, a humble little burro was chosen to carry pregnant Mary to Bethlehem to give birth to her Child. Did this not foreshadow the day I would be chosen to carry her Son into Jerusalem?  I will never forget that day! How could I forget our humble God enthroned upon my back?  I carried him that day, cautiously weaving through the cheering crowds, when all at once ‘There was a shout about my ears, and palms before my feet.’

His mission almost finished, I heard him warn his disciples that He would soon be put to death. Put to death, how could that be?  Surely, I had gotten it all wrong! 

I’m just a donkey, just the ‘devil’s walking-parody on all four footed things.’  Perhaps that’s all you think I am. However, when a distant rumble, ‘Crucify him’, pierced my ears, I stood and shuddered.   In the distance I saw a cross upon a hill and wished I could have carried it for him. 

No ludicrous buffoon am I.  No donkey ever was. You see, because I carried the King, donkeys, generations after me, bear a cross upon their backs.  May you, my friend, I beg you, think twice before you call someone an ass – for she or he, too, bears the divine.

Guest blogger Sr. Magdalena Vogt, Missionary Sisters of the Precious Blood

                The Donkey

When fishes flew and forests walked,
And figs grew upon thorn,
Some moment when the moon was blood,
Then surely I was born.

With monstrous head and sickening cry,
And ears like errant wings,
The devil’s walking parody
Of all four-footed things.

The tattered outlaw of the earth,
Of ancient, crooked will;
Starve, scourge, deride me: I am dumb,
I keep my secret still.

Fools! For I also had my hour;
One far fierce hour and sweet:
There was a shout about my ears,
And palms before my feet.

         C. K. Chesterton


WHAT IF . . .

Remember the occasion in sacred scripture where we read that the scribes and Pharisees were plotting to test Jesus so that they could have some “charge to bring against him”? We recently read the story of a woman caught in adultery and is made to stand before Jesus while she is  scorned by her accusers. These men claim that she was “caught in the very act of committing adultery” and according to the law of Moses should be stoned. What did Jesus have to say about this? We know that Jesus did not speak but “bent down and wrote with his finger on the ground.” (Jn. 8: 1-11)
What if, the scribes and pharisees who claimed that the woman was “caught in the very act of committing adultery” had plotted together ahead of time so that there could be no question of the woman’s innocence. What if, in plotting together their careful plan, they had stooped down  and drawn their plan on the ground. Then, when Jesus bent down and began drawing on the ground, what if, they recognized their own guilty involvement in the crime as they had plotted it. 
I’ve always wondered why the scribes and Pharisees “went away, one by one, beginning with the elders”. My imagination says, “No wonder they left speechless unwilling to throw the first stone.” 
Elaine Cole, CSJ

She descended into hell – in thirty years, she rose from the dead.

Today was different. You could see it in her eyes.

This was about the fifth of our sessions on the women’s unit at the jail on healing life’s hurts. Julie had spent the last 30 years in and out of jail. Until today, Julie was the joker in the group, making everyone laugh, coming out with the one-liners, no matter how serious the topic.

But not today. 

She walked in, turned her chair so that her back was toward us, and she said she was ready.

Dead silence. 

And then, in a slow, keening wail - she started. “He was two.  His name was Joey. I loved him so much.”

Haltingly, between huge sobs and gulps of breath, she shared that when she came home from work that day, she ran in as always, and hugged and kissed him and told him how much she missed him. She had been to the drycleaners on her way home, so she hung up her newly cleaned jacket, and went to get a cup of coffee. Her younger sister had been babysitting him while she was at work.

It was her sister who came in to the kitchen to tell her – Joey was not breathing.

After racing to his room, the awful realization immediately sunk in – Joey was dead!

He had suffocated on the plastic bag from the drycleaners which Julie had casually thrown on the bed.

In an instant, her life changed.  From that moment on, she said, nothing else mattered. She had killed her own son – she couldn’t get it out of her mind – ever!  The torture was more than she could bear. The only time she could ever forget, even momentarily, was when she was blitzed out on alcohol.

And then she discovered drugs – even better!  It lasted longer.  And so began her 30 year descent – in and out of jail – in and out of reality.  She didn’t care – there was no reason to live anyway.  She had never, ever told a single soul what had happened that day. She never, ever talked about it.

Until today. She cried loud, heaving sobs and all the other inmates cried with her.  They held her in loving, understanding silence. 

Julie was released from jail shortly after that – she has never returned. That was three years ago.  I’m rooting for you, Julie.  Happy Easter

Irene Baker, CSJ

 

A Reflection for the 4th Sunday of Lent

In the first reading from Joshua, Chapter 5, God tells us that he has “rolled away the disgrace of Egypt”. In the Gospel we hear the story of the Father who welcomed back the son who had disgraced his family and the older brother who resented the Father's love and forgiveness. This section is often mistitled The Prodigal Son, when it is really all about the Father. Also in Paul's letter to the Corinthians, we are reminded that we have been reconciled to God in and through Christ Jesus. Why is it that we can’t seem to really believe it is true when we say “The Word of the Lord”?

In today’s readings we hear about a God who loves us and always wants us to come back and is willing and waiting to take us back. So what does it mean to me that God loves me that much? How am I to live this passionate love in my life? 

Each one of us will have a different answer, but I believe that if I can truly get my head and heart around the fact that God loves me and wants me to love each person I meet, then what do I need to leave behind as the younger son did? What do I have to accept in community, in Church, in life to celebrate with those who “come home”? How can I welcome and accept each person I meet as one who is the Presence of God for me?               

Some of us are called to be prophets to speak God’s Truth. Some of us can do this only in prayer and in how we live each moment in Love and Gratitude. God of Love and Compassion, help me to hear your Word and live it each moment so others may become aware of you through my life. 

Anne Rajotte, CSJ

Transfiguration

Did you know that it is the intense heat of a forest fire that releases the seeds of the pine cone so that new growth can take place?

. . . tall, black tree trunks scarred from fire, delicately outlined with fresh, white snow,

. . . the lush green of the forest floor in the spring following a fire,

. . . the pinkish, purple blossoms of the fireweed plant growing in the spaces left vacant by fire,

These are the images I see as I drive along our highway and roads after two intense summers of forest fires. These are transfiguration moments for me.

As I reflect on the encounters I have had in the past few months, they speak of transfiguration.

. . . from two seven year old children in First Communion class, one sharing her time when she talks with Jesus and the light in her heart as he speaks to her and the other child telling of seeing Jesus, authentic, true, transforming

. . . to the man who asked if I would come with him to a telehealth conference call….holding his anxiety

. . . to the Inuit woman sitting on my living-room floor sharing for the first time her story of pain, trauma and abuse, she being transformed in the telling, me being transformed in the holding of story

. . . to keeping vigil with my dying friend and eventually being able to say “It is okay to go”

In this second week of Lent, Jesus invites us to go up the mountain with him. He had a conversation with Moses and Elijah about his imminent death. Yet, in the intensity of that conversation, new life, glory is proclaimed by the Father.

What conversation will Jesus have with you, with me? What transfiguration moments do I recognize each day?

Margaret Ann Beaudette, CSJ